It is mid January of 2020! I don’t know about you but it has been flying by and it hasn’t exactly started as I had planned. Between sickness, traveling, and the holidays I feel like the last month and a half have been a whirlwind and a bit of a blur at times.
I love Christmas and it is absolutely my favorite time of year but it is also a challenge for me. There is so much extra in the month of December (and January this year), even when carefully fenced, it gets me out of rhythm, and I like rhythm. So Christmas is also a stretching time for me. I am making notes of how I could do it better next year for me personally and for my family.
There have been several stirrings in my soul that I have wanted to be faithful to share, but it has not happened. Here we are 2 weeks into the new year and I am having to force myself to get started. Get back on the horse. There is fear, shame, disappointment with myself trying to stop me, but I know this is the good I am to be doing at this time. The Lord has some purpose in all of this. I must keep moving.
I have appreciated Larry Crabb’s notion that we will always have mixed motives, pure with the impure, this side of heaven. If I wait for a day to feel 100% right about why I am writing, I will never write another post. Before this winter break, I was feeling confident I could just write as the spirit led. Simple right. The Lord kept stirring my soul and would honestly distract me until I got the message out. I long for that again and I do hope it will come.
No matter how the last month and a half have been for you, is their a stirring in you that you need to lean into? Can we all stack hands on offering the grace we would happily give others to ourselves? I recently heard a speaker say, “God doesn’t need us, he wants us.” Can we take ourselves to the throne confidently, that we are wanted and loved, and quiet ourselves to see what the Lord has to say to us in this new year?
The Road We Are On 