Presence. God’s Presence. This is why Jesus came so that we could be in God’s Presence not just in the next life but in THIS one. This concept is changing the way I am seeing my entire spiritual walk. He wants to be with us in the here and now. I am learning to come to God not just with petitions or expressions of gratitude, but to simply BE with Him.
I just wrote a graduation card to a dear friend and I tried to express to her the bigness of the presence of God. She maybe did not even read the card, not sure if I would have at that point in life, and that is ok. But oh how different my life would have been if I could have gotten this concept sooner!
I am realizing this emphasis on ‘presence’ has been in the background, and even the foreground, for a long time but the Lord has just now decided to open my eyes. Rather than being frustrated it took me so long to see it (totally my natural inclination), I find myself just overwhelmed with gratitude that He has been this patient with me and drawn me close.
How did I get here? The Lord has taken me on quite the journey and I hope to recount it for you in this blog. In the note I wrote to my college bound friend, I encouraged her to wrestle honestly with the Lord. We can’t surprise or offend Him. We aren’t that powerful. But the truth is before you can wrestle honestly with Him, you have to be brave enough to be honest with yourself. Honest about your hopes, dreams, anger, saddness, and fears. Much of my journey to the heart of God has been self discovery and falling in love with who He has made me to be. To stop comparing myself to others and just letting Him, myself, and a few other trusted friends be in my headspace. I have learned about boundaries, limits, the Enneagram, and many aspects of emotional health. I have been called out by counselors, my husband, and close friends repeatedly.
Even as I sit here not really sure where this blog is going, what my life will look like in 2 months let alone 2 years, I am FULL! God’s Presence is what this life is all about!
The Road We Are On 
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